frustrated

so ya, i haven't posted in a while and so i thought i would update on what's up. not much really. that's why no posts. actually i've had numerous posts slip in and out of my mind all this week....none of them ever made it to fruition. (how do you spell that???) that word that means "to come about" or something like that. i get the feeling that this post will be very random, schizophrenic and a little discombooberated...(the little red squiggly lines under that word are telling me it's....discombobulated is what i mean, hmmm) and maybe even short. ya short - let's do that.

on second thought. i suppose i should explain why "frustrated." not sure i want to though cause i probably shouldn't be frustrated at all. but i am. and if i tell you why i'm frustrated the very ugly-disgusting-selfish-awful-not me, other side of me will...come to fruition? no, rear it's ugly head. ya. i'm not so sure i want you all to see that side of me. it's pretty awful and i turn into a slobbery, whiney, old baby.....old baby? hmmmm.

so i will stop. and as spoken from the mouth of my friend sarah "full stop."

"hello. full stop. That's what i am currently experiencing. stop of mind. stop of rational thought. stop of making sense. stop of talking right now...i promise...really...shut up my face. Love and kisses and cup cakes and frolics through wild flowers and warm fuzzies ect...really disturbing, Sarah"