june
i realize it's been awhile since i last posted. especially since my hubby is starting to brag that he's gotten in more posts than me...you know it's been awhile when he's saying that! so i've decided to rectify that. but what to post about?
i had a birthday. that was cool. however, it was foreshadowed by the fact that the month of may is simply becoming a bad luck month for me. it's june now. i like that. not just because it's my middle name but because june means may is finally over. i'm not sure what it is but this was the second may in a row that's been emotionally draining for me. last may as most of you know, my dad was put in prison (very good thing - but still weird), my 13 (now 14) year old brother came to live with my husband and i (good - but still a hard adjustment) and my mother went crazy...well i shouldn't say went crazy....uh, exposed herself as a new kind of crazy to the rest of my family (also good - but still weird).
now, i have to admitt, this may wasn't as bad as last may....but as my close friends put it, it seems like i've gone from one emotionally draining "crisis" to another! just as i got over one, i'm onto the next! (wish i could share more, but can't) and how right they are. one especially funny and honestly uplifting comment from one of my friends, "teresa, don't you just feel like sitting in one spot and just swearing, over and over and over again!?" truth be told? YES but i won't say more on the grounds that i may incriminate myself.
then i found this quote: Then, when it seems we will never smile again, life comes back.
deep breath in.....deep, slow, relaxing breath out. that's what i needed.
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4 comments:
Teresa, you and me gotta hang out. Like just us, go take some pics...
i agree girly! let's do!
teresa, i feel for you, i do. but i have to admit that i busted out with a short chuckle in my office with your line "uh, exposed herself as a new kind of crazy to the rest of my family."
oh my goodness.
teresa, i am happy to pray for you. i swear, it's in moments like this that i think, "jesus! just come back already!!"
with love to you.
mary
well mary, you know what? i'm glad that made you laugh because really, when things just get so bad that you feel like you're stuck in a soap opera on tv....laughter is all that's left! it's my saving grace! if i can't joke about it, it's not worth worrying about...in my mind, if it's serious - i find a way to laugh about it. i can't afford to take difficult stuff too seriously. even though they areserious...i just can't expend a bunch of "serious" energy on the "serious stuff." i'd just rather try and see the hilarious, ironic, and messed up-wacked out side of the "serious" stuff in my life, just to survive!
besides, in the end none of this matters. it's where my heart was at while i was in the middle of it that matters. that's all. nothing else. just that. my heart. that's all He looks at anyway.
thanks for the comment mary.
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