Tuesday, August 16, 2005

spies

spies

I awake to find no peace of mind
I said, how do you live as a fugitive?

Down here where I cannot see so clear.

I said, what do I know?
Show me the right way to go
And the spies came out of the water
But you’re feeling so bad cos you know
And the spies hide out in every corner
But you can’t touch them no
Cos they’re all spies, they’re all spies

I awake to see that no one is free
We’re all fugitives
Look at the way we live
Down here, I cannot sleep from fear no

I said, which way do I turn?
I forget everything I learn
But the spies came out of the water
But you’re feeling so bad cos you know
And the spies hide out in every corner
But you can’t touch them though
Cos they’re all spies, they’re all spies

And if we don’t hide here
They’re going to find us
If we don’t hide now
They’re going to catch us where we sleep
And if we don’t hide here
They’re going to find us
~Coldplay - Parachutes

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for whatever reason, I was raised in a very fear-driven home. everyone else (outside the family) were always not to be trusted...."they don't understand," "they don't know," etc........there was also an ever present feeling of paranoia and irrationalism in my home life................hence "spies." and i felt like we were constantly running and always isolated; we were essentially "fugitives."

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

my life

maryMy Life - Mary J. Blige - My Life
**New! Click on the pic to listen to a clip from itunes!**

If you looked in my life
And see what I’ve seen...
If you looked in my life
And see what I’ve seen...

Life can be only what you make it
When you’re feeling down
You should never fake it
Say what’s on your mind
And you’ll find in time
That all the negative energy
It would all cease

And you’ll be at peace with yourself
You won’t really need no one else
Except for the Man up above
Because He’ll give you love

If you looked in my life
And see what I've seen
You will see I'm so blue
Down and out
Crying every day
Don't know what to do or to say
If you looked into my life
And see what I've seen

Take your time
Baby don’t you rush a thing
Don’t you know, I know
We all are struggling
I know it is hard
But we will get by
And if you don’t believe in me
Just believe in He

Cause He’ll give you peace of mind
Yes He will
And you will see the sunshine
For real, yes you would
And you’ll get to free your mind
And things will turn out fine
Oh, I know that things will turn out fine
Yes they would, yes they would

If you looked at my life
And see what I've seen
All you got to do is
Take your time
One day at a time
It's all on you
What you're going to do
If you looked at my life
And see what I've seen

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

office space

office
"damn, it feels good to be a gansta!"

Joanna: So, where do you work, Peter?
Peter Gibbons: Initech.
Joanna: In... yeah, what do you do there?
Peter Gibbons: I sit in a cubicle and I update bank software for the 2000 switch.
Joanna: What's that?
Peter Gibbons: Well see, they wrote all this bank software, and, uh, to save space, they used two digits instead of four.
So, like 98 instead of 1998? Uh... so I go through these thousands of lines of code and, uh... it doesn't really matter. I uh... I don't like my job, and, uh... I don't think I'm gonna go anymore.
Joanna: You're just not gonna go?
Peter Gibbons: Yeah.
Joanna: Won't you get fired?
Peter Gibbons: I don't know, but I really don't like it, and, uh, I'm not gonna go.
Joanna: So you're gonna quit?
Peter Gibbons: Nah-uh. Not really. Uh... I'm just gonna stop going.
Joanna: When did you decide all that?
Peter Gibbons: About an hour ago.
Joanna: An hour ago... so you're gonna get another job?
Peter Gibbons: I don't think I'd like another job.
Joanna: Well, what are you going to do about money and bills and...
Peter Gibbons: You know... I've never really liked paying bills. I don't think I'm gonna do that, either.

ok allan here's my office space. and I'm sporting my "i-hate-posing-for-pictures-and-I'm-trying-really-hard-not-to-look-dorky" face. :)